scribble scrabble

>my pillow doesnt smell like you any more.

>i write her a message every night before falling asleep
its the same message each and every night
i know it by heart already

“i dont mean to act like an asshole when youre around
its just a defense mechanism, im afraid to let you in
im terrified that youll leave”

i never send it
instead i flip the pillow to the cold side
and inhale deeply, knowing ill be disappointed again.